Friday, April 20, 2012

one year as a working mom

a year ago today, I went back to work, almost 12 weeks* after Clara's birth. it was a hard, hard day, the date of which I will never forget. I've been sort of dreading the "anniversary" for awhile and all day today, thought I should write something about it tonight. 

it's still not easy. 

since Scott ended up quitting his job to stay home with her 50ish weeks ago, I haven't had the added stress of her being in daycare (though that will come next year). I know she's received just as good of care from her dada as she would have with me.  but... I miss her. every day. and I beat myself up for not working more productively so I can leave early and spend more time with her, etc etc.  I suppose this is the infamous "mom guilt."

the night before I went back to work

now, she's such a big, funny, sweet, smart girl.  she's shy, like I was as a kid (and still am, really). much cuter though =)

{picasa movie star effect}

{trying to plug in the phone}
though I'm rarely effective at turning stress/sadness into action, I wanted to do something special to commemorate surviving this year. so tonight, I finished a project I've been putting off - a tent Scott and I were building for Clara's play area. he finished the frame a week or so ago; I just needed to make the cover.

can't wait to give it to her in the morning, and to cherish every minute I do get to spend with her reading books and goofing off in there...


*I would be remiss in not thanking my dad, who paid my hospital bill so I could stay home longer (my job had no paid leave)

Monday, April 16, 2012

the difference a year makes

Mirror Lake, April 2011

{duck nipped her toe moments later... looked like bread?}

Mirror Lake, April 2012

{fell and busted her nose... not too worried about it}

{new Picasa pencil drawing filter}

Carrot harvest, April 2011

{my old blog header}

Carrot Harvest, April 2012

{carrot ninja}

sorry for my absence of is crazy. will be back to catch up soon!